u/Practical_Donut5284

Pour one out for the homies. Used to love listening to the broadcasts back in like 2010.

I’m 29 and was diagnosed with a severely painful condition almost exactly 10 years ago. I’ve had lots of moments like these over the years, where I am confined to my bed for multiple days if not whole weeks. Trash piles up in the bedroom, clothes are everywhere, I have to ask my family and boyfriend for help for the most basic tasks.

I already deal with depressive bipolar disorder, so depression and isolation is no stranger to me. But it does really get to me when I’m physically isolated and depleted like this.

No one in the world will ever understand my pain or what I go through. I’ve had surgery under anesthesia every 6 months for the past 10 years for treatment. Everyone tells me how strong I am, but really it’s just that I have no other choice.

I hate feeling useless, infantile, lazy, not good or helpful enough. I’m usually a very self sufficient person so it’s easy to feel down about not being able to provide for myself.