u/Possible_Sample5953

Hey guys I made a post on another community and people directed me here…I’m 23F and have knew I liked girls since high school. I managed to push it down but now I have the same feelings times a thousand.I have people left and right telling me it’s wrong, it’s not wrong but in my heart I feel like it’s wrong and therefore I’m wrong and it hurts.

I have prayed and begged God to change my feelings since childhood I have tried stuff with men I have tried to convince myself I’m straight but I just can’t and I feel guilty…like I’m a defect in this world. Some people told me it’s the devil’s work wanting to push me away from God….some people tell me it’s nature, some others told me yes it’s nature but still isn’t right and I should stay celibate for the rest of my life. Church is the same thing…bible is clear on it but my gosh I feel like I can’t breathe….Im genuinely afraid because I don’t want to choose wrong…but I want to be loved too…why is love wrong? Why should I have to force myself to be straight? help me on this please…

Hey guys for context I’m 23F and been struggling with this for a while now. I felt a little different about girls since high school and I knew deep down something was going on but I pushed it down and now it’s like that feeling times a thousand and I know it goes against the scripture and god but I don’t know how to stop and it genuinely makes me so guilty because no matter how much I try all these years I can never feel the same attraction or connection for a man. Should I go to a priest? What if that doesn’t work? Do I have to suppress it in some way i don’t know….I prayed countless times to god as kid to make me stop feeling like this…I would appreciate your help in this.