I am a massage therapist visiting my parents home. I am having a major blockage working on my dad as he's in pain (has been for a long time) anyone been in a similar position?
I have used thai and ashi style techniques on him before and he was so grateful. It really helped him. He has been in pain since i can remember and that is probably why i chose to become a massage therapist, so i could help, because as a child i sort of felt responsible for his suffering in some way - like a sense of guilt or like it was my job to help him... anyways i was the baby of the family and really took on the role of "healer" "mediator" i would really take the emotional brunt of the family and sort of hold space for everyone .. not by choice.
anyways my dad is 69 now and in a lot of pain with his knees and hips and keeps mentioning to me that his muscles are locked up. For some reason on this trip and the last i have had a major blockage in wanting to help him.. almost like because when i was a kid i really suffered from his pain too, you know? Like i sort of feel like its not my responsibility to fix him and I honestly just feel like such a brat for not offering to try to help him ( to be fair i dont really have the proper equipment, he'd be on the hard floor..)
I can see him in pain and it pains me but i just cant seem to shake this blockage! help. has anyone else dealt with this sort of thing? Am i going to regret not helping to ease his pain during this time of his life.. do i need to just suck it up and help my father feel better??