Fish out of Water
“I don’t understand why you have to go,” Nicola said plaintively. Luca’s little brother sat on the seaweed mattress, watching him sort through what would come with him, and what would stay.
“It’s a big opportunity, Nico,” Luca said, not turning. They’d had this conversation a dozen times already.
Ten years. Luca avoided thinking how much of Nicola’s life he would miss. How much of Tulu’s, and of little Mikalo, who was five now and would be fifteen when he returned. He wondered what it would be like to come back and see his brother and little sisters all grown up. His tail twitched in agitation, stirring the water.
There was a weight limit, and a lot of his wetfolk stuff wouldn’t have survived the dry upper altitudes of Sojourn anyways. Luca’s clothes were already in the net hamper. He’d be keeping an abalone pendant of his family’s pod, and a bag of seven pearls. “We’ll dream together every night,” Luca promised again.
“I know,” Nicola said, voice small. “I miss you already.”
Luca stopped packing to briefly give Nico a hug. “I know, big guy,” he said guiltily.
Nicola was only quiet for a minute before asking again, “Do you know what you’re going to be?”
Luca grinned. “It’s a surprise. You know that.”
Luca knew exactly what he was going to be.
“Awe,” Nico wailed in mock outrage, slapping wall with his tail. Then, more quietly, he asked, “Are you scared of the Change?”
“No,” Luca answered lightly. But his chest tightened. He wasn't scared of the change, but Luca was scared of what his family would say when he never changed back.
He remembered how strange it had been when his uncle Antonna had returned last year. He’d looked so much like their mom, but human. No scales or tail or gills. His feet were blocky, his fingers long, and his skin was pink and windburnt. Antonna had brought his human lifepartner Gariqe with him, and Luca’s mom had been so afraid that Antonna would stay human. She’d been almost rude to the poor man, until Antonna finally mentioned that Gariqe was making the Change with him.
Luca had asked each of them, at different times, the question that had pulled his mind like a riptide since he was young.
“Do you want to stay human?” he'd asked his uncle Antonna.
Antonna still had the crinkly black hair then, and had carded a hand through it as they sat on the dock. He spoke slowly, working through his own answer. “It’s been a good experience, a good adventure. I’ll always be grateful. I’ve always loved exploring, it’s what made me volunteer for a Sojourn in the first place. It’s part of what drew me to Garic.” He shoved his stubby dryfolk feet into the water. “But I miss home. I always knew I was going to come back some day. I’m just lucky, I guess, that Garic would make this sacrifice to be with me.”
Antonna and Gariqe had stayed in the dryfolk village for two months, Sojourn slowly eclipsing the southern sky, before their time came, and they traveled up to Cuibo together. A week later Antonna was back to the fishy boy Luca’s mother remembered from ten years ago, and Gariqe had brand new coppery scales and a thick tail.
Months passed. Gariqe was like a baby in some ways, learning how to move now his body was different, how to transition smoothly from air to water, how to navigate the reefs. But he was also very curious and open to new experiences. He was a little greedy and selfish, but that was normal of outsiders, and he tried his best to accustom himself to pesci ways.
One night, Luca heard Gariqe and Antonna shouting. In the morning, Antonna wouldn’t leave his room, and Gariqe was in the dryfolk village.
Luca found him, sitting at a dryfolk bar with an open glass of batora. He’d looked at Luca in consternation. “Your mother would kill me if she knew you were here.”
“Then don’t tell her,” Luca had said, taking the stool next to him. He looked around at the other patrons, all humans. Some looked back, but most ignored them politely. “Uncle Antonna is worried.”
“He knows where to find me,” Gariqe groused, looking at the batora between his now-webbed fingers. “He always finds me like this, you know. It’s how we first met. Me a mess, and him pulling me out of it.” He sipped the batora. Impressively, he only coughed a little. He must have been practicing. “Why are my gills on fire?”
“Gills are part of the insides,” Luca explained. “It’s like pouring alcohol on an open wound. My aunties usually eat fermented fish when they want to get drunk.”
“Fermented fish?” Gariqe said with some interest.
“Yeah,” Luca said. He pointed. “Why are you trying to drink that stuff anyways?”
“I miss it,” Gariqe sighed. “That’s what we were fighting about, actually. I didn’t realize how hard this transition would be. Anton tried to warn me, but I thought I knew what I was going into.”
“Do you sometimes want to change back?” Luca's own casual tone rang like a stranger's voice in his ears.
“Go back to human?” Gariqe repeated.
He held one webbed hand to the lantern, watching the faint translucent glow between his fingers. “I haven't told you much about Aelbaion. It's a miserable place. I was miserable. Cold and grim and hungry. My whole family was... well, it's peaceful now, but it wasn't always. I didn’t have anyone and didn't need anyone, I thought. I’d thought, sneaking onto Sojourn, I’d tricked my way into the easy life.” He gave a short laugh. “The Sphinx disabused me of that notion pretty quickly. But then I made friends on Sojourn. I met Anton, someone I could rely on completely. And you, your siblings, Anton’s mom, all of you have treated me like family. How could I give that up?” Gariqe lowered his hand. “So, do I miss being human? Yeah, sometimes. But I’m not going to change back, if that means losing Anton.”
That had left Luca feeling both relieved and a little sad.
Now it was Luca’s turn to make the change. Luca would be representing their people, the pesci, for only the second cycle on Sojourn. This was a right they had fought for, still fought for in the Council of the Twelve on the skylands. Even now, pesci were only allowed to Sojourn if they took a different form for the journey. A precaution, some said, as the intense dryness, cold, and altitude would otherwise kill one of the fishfolk. Others said it was just to keep the pesci grounded.
This was Luca’s chance to repay the mita. It was also a change he desperately wanted. Luca himself wasn’t quite sure what compelled him, but he knew that he needed a chance to be someone different for a while.
It didn’t take long before Luca joined his parents and sisters in the living room, Nicola sulkily slithering out of their shared room behind him. Nicola had been excited, months ago, to find out he’d be getting his own room, but he wasn’t excited now, when the hour to leave had arrived.
They made a quick supplication to Zepo, the local goddess of frogs and fishing, and then had a family hug before leaving. Everyone pretended not to notice the tears. Luca wasn’t sure if the tightness in his chest was homesickness or excitement.
Antonna and Gariqe and grandma and aunts and uncles and cousins all gave them presents and hugs and kisses at the village docks. Finally, they left their home in swampy Gionu, poling the reed gondola between the house stilts and mangrove trees of the village and towards the shadowed bulk of the island in the quiet darkness before dawn.
They made the shore just as the sun shimmered over the horizon. Luca was soon short-breathed as they trudged up the long road that zigzagged into the highlands of Ombreje. After listening to Tulu complain about her feet and picking up Mikalo to carry for a couple miles, Luca figured out pretty quickly why they hadn’t ever gone to Cuibo before, even though they lived practically beneath it. Altitude made distances deceptive.
It took a hot three hour walk to the harpy village and the hot air balloons, forty minutes waiting in line, and another forty minutes catching their breath and adjusting to the altitude before they landed on the harpy skyland Arpellona, in the square of Cuibo.
The capital was as crowded and loud, but not chaotic. Music soared up with the harpies at every stall and street corner. It was dry and cool, of course, but not unpleasant. Overhead, harpies flew along the skyroutes marked with windsock flags posted throughout the city. Despite the sheer volume of flyers, they flew in harmonized rhythm, like an elaborate dance. Luca had a hard time tearing his eyes away.
They passed through the crowded city and beyond, to the perfectly scooped-out Egg Valley, finally coming into sight of the Vale of the Sphinx. Luca couldn’t stop smiling.
This was it.
At last, they passed through the great double doors and into the inner sanctum, waiting their turn as the Sphinx sat, dwarfing the line of petitioners. Luca tried not to stare too openly at the oldest being in all creation. Although he reclined couchant, feet and wings tucked and tail idly swishing, the Eldest was still eye-level with his human and harpy visitors. His mane and fur were almost totally white and his wrinkled skin was a dark nut brown. His face was leathery like a dried prune, but his pale blue eyes still shone with lively intelligence. Shimmering blue robes pooled around him.
His face brightened when it was the pesci family to be ushured forward. They all bowed low, and the Sphinx nodded in turn.
“Ah, gentle pesci, welcome. It is not often that we see our finned siblings in the capital. How may I help?” His voice was gravely, and though it was nearly a whisper it echoed through the dark chambers.
Taking a deep breath, Luca stepped forward, ahead of his mother. "I seek the Change, Honored One. I will be joining Sojourn this cycle."
“Ah, you come seeking the Change," the old sphinx mused. "It has been a few centuries since last the pesci wished for the Change.”
Luca wondered if he should mention his uncle, but thought it would be rude to interrupt.
“You are to Sojourn in twelve weeks? You will join my youngest.” The Eldest looked far away for a moment, old pain on his face. “I do hold faith with her. In some ways she is the best of us. But we are only three, and I do worry.” He shook his head and returned to the present. “Be that as it may. What is your name, little pesca?”
“Luca Sireno, Honored One,” Luca answered.
“Very well, Luca Sireno. You may approach.”
Luca came forward and dropped to one knee, taking one offered finger of the clawed hand.
What the Eldest said next had the heavy familiarity of ceremony. “The Change is both a blessing and a burden of the People. It allows us to walk on four limbs, to swim with three, to fly or run with two. It opens our eyes to the lives of others. It grants us the ability to choose what we are. Take this gift.”
The sphinx breathed in Luca’s face, warm and moist and smelling faintly of garlic and bacon. Where the breath touched Luca’s skin tingled with magic. “Be a bridge of understanding among the People. Be brave, little one.”
With that, the sphinx laboriously got to his feet, leathery wings flapping with the effort. “Now is the time to say goodbye,” The Eldest said, nodding to Luca’s waiting, silent family. “When next they see you, you will be reborn.”
Luca got up shakily as well and was engulfed by his family in a steady wave of teary-eyed hugs and admonitions. “We love you,” he heard over and over. “Come back to us,” they begged.
“I love you,” Luca said to each one. He hugged Nicola, and Tulu, and Mikalo, and his mom, and finally his dad.
"The Change doesn't change who your heart," His dad had whispered. "No matter what you become, you will always be ours."
Luca wondered if his father knew what was in his mind.
But then he was being led away by a human attendant through one door, while a harpy ushered his mother and father and sisters and brother back through another.
The hallway was dark and sloped downwards, lit only by the human attendant’s torch. It grew almost chilly underground in the stone heart of the Arpelonna. Soon they reached a softly illuminated cave where a glowing chrysalis the size of a tree pulsed amber and blood red light through the darkness. It reminded Luca of a heartbeat. With a start, he realized the light shimmered in time with his own heartbeat.
Or perhaps Luca’s heartbeat matched the rhythm of the chrysalis.
The Eldest was waiting at the base, even his great bulk dwarfed by the structure. “This is the Relic,” he said, gesturing one wing upwards. It looked to be smooth stone, but the Sphinx stuck a claw into it and cut a hole down to the ground as easily as a spear through fish. Bright light spilled out. The Eldest pulled one corner away like a tent flap.
“What do you wish to become, little one?” He rumbled.