Getting married and I both miss that my father won’t be there in the flesh
My father, Christopher (Chris), was very silly and every bone in his body were “funny” bones. He brought so much levity to my earth-given family and we’ve all struggled without him here. Only last year do I feel like I released my grip on his death and allowed or accepted his passing. There was a strong religious film/gauze over me at the time that was keeping me from accepting his death, even long after the fact, feeling like he wasn’t supposed or allowed to die. This was due to my mom encouraging all of my family to believe for his recovery from the cancer he was battling and to not accept or believe that he could die.
I absolutely know my father will be there when I’m getting married—I know he’s with me still—but I’m in such sadness that he’s not here materially. especially because my partners family will be so physically present, involved, and attending in such high numbers, whereas I have very little family and feel lesser representation and support.
**Is there any comfort, jokes, or random sharing that my dad wants to give me?**
ETA: my dad passed nine years ago; it will be ten in the month of my wedding.