I think I’ve experienced quantum immortality.
It’s driving me insane.
On the other hand I don’t believe in quantum immortality (I do believe in reincarnation across the multiverse, but as a baby. A new person. Not a universe where we magically survived) but on the other hand the odds of me surviving that not once but twice, makes me wonder maybe it is.
So I’ve attempted to hang myself twice.
The first official (partial) hanging was back in May 2021.
I used my mom her belt, to tie it to my window, and put my neck in it. Whenever my vision went blurry I got out (my feet were touching the ground) but like apparently I went through with it, ‘cause I went unconscious, and when I woke up, I jumped out of the rope, onto my bed.
My neck hurt like hell, and I had marks from the belt all over my neck.
That attempt was half-assed so you could think “your feet were touching the ground, so the pressure wasn’t strong enough for death”
But I tried to hang myself once again back in July 2024.
This time I used the rope, of my sister her morning robe.
This attempt is where I was fully, my feet weren’t touching the ground.
So I made a knot (not a slip knot) in the rope, hung it against the door, grabbed a chair and kicked it from under my feet.
I literally don’t remember anything.
I lost consciousness.
I suddenly woke up, with my feet kicking back and forth against the door. my vision was black prolly ‘cause my eyes were closed.
I couldn’t breath, and felt the rope tight against my neck.
I remember thinking “am I dreaming?”
I realize I wasn’t.
I kept struggling and somehow got out of the rope.
That makes me wonder “that’s not possible to survive” especially since I was fully hanging this time.
But then again, the fabric was soft, and it wasn’t a slip knot but still, wtf?
So that’s why I’m starting to think that I’ve experienced quantum immortality, at least from the attempt from July 2024.
But then when I start to believe that, I immediately get skeptical.
I wonder “okay, but the version that survived am I now coexisting with his consciousness? Or did his consciousness go to another universe?”
Idk.