Am i the one at fault because my classmate got punched by someone?
I am a girl who has a terrible life once i enter my school. So in my school, we have been fixed with one class for each grade where the subject teachers come during their respective period. And i had fixed classmates for my entire academic year. We were known to be one of the worst classes because of our boys and some of the girls. I had recently changed my school, so seeing this i really didn't know that in my upcoming years i would face my worst fear. After an year hardworking, I had finally gained my good reputation in the school even after belonging to the worst class as they say and i was made the class captain for that same class.
One day i was sitting in backbench of my class completly zoned out because i was sitting alone and tried to process the outfit i am wearing. I was supposed to wear a jacket with my t- shirt but i didn't have it so i had to wear a stupid coat( my school had uniform restrictions so my only choice was that coat) which looked so ugly on me. All i was hearing was laughing, giggling which stopped as the teacher nearby enters to check on them. You see our school timings had changed that day due to the heat which is why the bus was coming late, so our computer teacher hadn't arrived yet. So our class was alone again after the teacher went back.
I was feeling really sleepy and all the humiliation of the stupid coat was just ringing in my ear, I am not even kidding a few people had asked already that where is my jacket. I was completly zoned out again when i heard the class go silent. I looked around to see a boy( lets call him boy1) holding his eye and everyone was looking at him. He sat down with his face down still holding his eye where as another boy( boy2) stood beside him like a criminal who just did his crime.
Now this was normal in this stupid class, where a bunch of boys just bully eachother and just laugh about it. But boy2 was bullied the most, not for being nerd but for being the complete opposite. As he was a bad topic for all the teachers so all the boys just stick their nose upto him for fun. I hated all the boys for this behaviour, i had even complained to our class teacher( who is responsible for our class) and all she did was make them stand and give a long lecture to the entire class. She has even seen them do that couple of times and all she did was give a 5 minute lecture to the entire class about our future and stuff.
So that day boy2 was getting slapped in the back by many boys and this idea was brought up by boy1. They were slapping him in the back while covering him with a sweater around his face. And while everyone was dispersing the boy1 was still hooked up in hitting boy2. He suddenly got the energy to lift himself up and punched boy1 in his eye with his elbow by standing side ways.
Now after a recollection of the events i tried to make out what was happening in the front from the back. I stood up and went near boy1 and on the way a boy comes up to me and said "don't tell anyone." With him other boys looked at me saying the same. I ignored them and went to the boy1, he was sitting head down on the desk. I was in a dilemma because he was one of the boys who always made small problems exaggerate into a big one. And part of me couldn't even believe what had happened. I tried to talk to him but he won't reply at all, i had seriously thought he was playing one of his games again. I asked him that i have to look at the eye to do anything but he wouldn't do anything. Somebody shouted our class teacher is coming this way, so i had to return to my sit. She came in and we all wished her. And ofcourse she had started with one of her lectures again saying we are becoming notorious by each day passing by but she was intrrupted when she saw boy1 head down.
After she had enquired for a long time, he finally lifted his head and our teacher was shocked to see his eye so red. Now i couldn't make out anything from the last bench but she was extremely mad. Later that, all the things that happend is a history, he was vomiting and fainting. He had to go to the hospital! The teachers were explained with what had happened, and they all came to a conclusion that all the fault was of the girls?! and partly the boys. I was completly shocked to hear that. Our class teacher had been scolding us the whole time and Me the most because i was the class captain who had done nothing to prevent this. I didn't understand any of their conclusions they had blamed us for.
They said we didn't do anything to stop it and that is why it happened in the first place. And omg was i angry at them for saying that, because just 2 or 3 weeks before me accompanied by my friend , had written a letter to the class teacher which reached the principal on behalf of the girls in my class saying that the boys create nuissance in class, are indisiciplined and disrespect teachers and us. They only saw that single line desrespected us. And punished the boys saying that they disrespect the girls. They were never shown that letter. Omg i still cry remembering all the crictising and hatred comments we recived from the boys thinking we made up a fake letter to just punish the boys. But they won't accept the truth that they sometimes do and that was not the main purpose of the letter. The boys were extremely mean towards me after that. Even a girl who had herself signed the letter turned against me and then the boys critisised me that i forced them to sign it.
First of all the letter was written by my friend and it was her idea because she thought i would want to raise a complaint to the Class teacher and but we never thoughg the principal. And second i had passed the letter through the seats where the girls sat to read this complaint and sign under it if you agree. I was depressed by all that and now they are saying that we girls didn't do anything to stop them.
We really didn't know what we could to do especially after the letter incident the boys had grown more distant from us and won't even listen a word. I had to go to the principal's office on behalf of them and immediately got scolded for my stupid coat. Ugh i hated that stupid stupid coat. I was in the bringe of breaking out into tears. But i had to hold it down. Now i was getting more clear view of the situation as they spoke more. She questioned me what i was doing while this happened. Now this was hard to answer because like i said i was completly zoned out when this was happening and i couldn't just say i was zoned out or doing nothing. This took me a while to think and when I opened my mouth to say something, she intrrupted me and said " you were watching the show weren't you!"
I was taken aback by that I said "No! No I didn't I just didn't know what was happening it all happened so quick"
"Oh so, it happened quick. You didn't even notice? But then why didn't you go call your subject teacher before this happened?"
"I knew he was late because of the bus problem."
" Then why didn't you go call another teacher?!"
Ok so we don't call another teacher to just mind the class. We usually do that to with substitutions but that wasn't the case here. I knew he was going to come some time later. Also don't forget that there was another teacher checking in on us, so i didn't think of calling another teacher. When i explained it only then did they let me go.
The thing that disgusts me the most is that the boys who had done this were laughing and were totally cheered, whereas i on the other hand was getting blamed for everything they caused. And now the boy had 2 surgeries for his eyes and felt extremely bad but he was the one who started "the fun" as they say it. I can't believe he still studies in our school after that.
This incident has really disturbed me and had really hindered my academics. I had a huge fallout of percentage. Now i am moving out of this school as my parents have got a transfer. I don't know if it is because of my age or what but i felt really ashamed of this and i feel like there is nothing i can do about it. I maybe think it was all my fault, maybe i should have never sat there and maybe should have done something... Many of my friends tried to cheer me up by saying it was not my fault. But i really need you guys' honest opinion on this matter. Please help..
Ps: i am new to writing in reddit and please ignore my rough english skills as it is not my first language. And i am so sorry for writing so long, it is going to be a long read.