Venting/complaining about... everything. 🙃
I don't even know where to start. I'm a 35 year old man. The last seven years of my life have not been kind. Two back to back cancer diagnoses the second one being stage 3. I did over 30+ radiation treatments. I then lost my house. Then I started having pulmonary issues.
A woman came into my life I finally thought things were turning around. She ended up having a bad mental breakdown and moved out on me, and moved to a whole other state. So then I was stuck with rent that I cant afford on my own. I found some roommates to move in and help.
*During all of 2024-Nov. 2025 I was working full time, had started going to school, taking my exs mom to and from work/appointments (she was having seizures). Taking my dad to his appointments and or getting him from the hospital (he had very complicated surgical hernias causing small obstructions). Also trying to do the same for my mom who has terminal cancer.*
2026..... I was hoping would be a better year but no..... my dads bowels perforated and he went into septic shock. He died in February.
So here I am bracing for my mom's passing, trying to heal after a terrible break up/discard, learning to live with new people, and then my dad dies.
So I move my mom in with me.
Now my property manager wants to do a whole new credit check for me to renew my lease. I won't pass. So now I have to move by the 30th and I have no money except 1 paycheck at the end of the month. She also said she won't give me my security deposit back because it technically came off her card. I said one she abandoned the lease, two we had split it. But she said no.
I'm about $55,000 in debt (95% student loans) and I have an associates degree but in my area jobs pay so poorly. I many woth their bachelor's degree making the same amount as me. we make about $19 an hour. Most places around me want you to make 3x the rent, and be able to pay $1000 or more for 1 bedroom apartments.
Things just seem so impossible. I work a full time job and my schedule is completely random so its also very hard to plan for anything.
Before anyone asks yes I see a therapist. frequently.
Not really looking for any input or anything.... I just needed to throw all this somewhere. If you made it this far thank you for reading.🙃