I can’t stay consistent and it’s starting to exhaust me
I’m 23, married, and a father to a 10-month-old baby. I live in Japan and work in a factory, making around ¥5 million a year. I’m grateful for stability, but I feel like I have no real direction or profession.
My Japanese is around N3 level, so I’m stuck in this middle point where I can function, but not grow.
I’ve been trying to study Japanese and programming to build a better future, but I keep failing at consistency. I’ll study seriously for two weeks, then completely stop for another two weeks. This cycle just keeps repeating.
Every time I stop, I feel this heavy frustration, like I’m wasting my potential. But at the same time, I feel tired of trying and failing over and over again.
I go to the gym 5 times a week, and it’s one of the few things I genuinely enjoy. I even thought about trying to become a fitness influencer because I think I have a good natural physique, but my wife doesn’t support that idea. Now I feel torn between what I enjoy and what seems “realistic.”
Lately, I’ve been thinking about quitting the gym just to focus on studying, but I’m afraid I’ll burn out even more. At the same time, part of me just wants to give up on self-improvement entirely and just live life as it is.
I feel lost, undisciplined, and honestly exhausted from this cycle.
Has anyone here gone through something similar? How did you fix your consistency?