Ex has a new boyfriend
10 months since she broke up with me after a 4 year relationship unable to move on. I just today found out that she has a new boyfriend and I want to destroy them ... I'm enraged, sad and hopeless. I see people post "if she/him is happy then I am happy for them" what the fuck does that mean becuase no either something is wrong with me or you are coping becuase all I can imagine right now is walking past them by coincidence and beating the shit out of the dude.
I am angry she moved on becuase it means I wasn't that special to her as I hoped I would be becuase to me she was.
I am also angry becuase I am far behind in life, I struggle with serious anxienty and depression. I am very depended on people around me like my foster parents becuase I am unable to get my drivers license with my anxienty. I already know this guy is way more stable/regular/succesfull then me and it hurts becuase I never wanted to be a failure, I always wanted to be proud of myself and for her to look at me in awe but thats also the reason she left me becuase of how much further she was in life then me.