I went up on my lines in the most important audition of my career. i have done this role a hundred times.
Open call for a regional theater production. The role I've been working toward for three years. I've performed scenes from this play in class, in workshops, in showcases. I know these lines the way i know my own name, but there were five people at the table and a camera i wasn't expecting and something just stopped mid monologue. The words just weren't there. I did the thing where you go silent and try to look like you're making a choice. It didn't work. One of the casting directors gave me a line reading which is the most humiliating thing that can happen in an audition setting. Finished somehow they thanked me and I left. Never gone up in performance never just in the one room where it actually mattered. I know this is a technical thing that has a technical fix but right now i just want to know if anyone else has been here.