Went low contact from family and they seem to be doing better than ever
I went low contact from my family a few years ago so i could heal. Recently i bumped into them at a function and they honestly seemed to be doing better than ever- its like they banded together after i left and they seem a lot closer.
It was so weird to see. All this self doubt started flooding in- like was i the issue? Were things as bad as i thought if they seem to be totally fine after i left. It was this weird thing feeling like i left total dysfunction and severe emotional trauma and then just seeing them all seeming like really fine. Especially because i was the “scapegoat “ in a lot of ways.
I also felt this pain because it felt like double loss - like leaving was hard enough, and then also seeing that they are this tight group now, and i am on my own. It just felt really weird. I feel like i am reeling. Like my sense of reality got shaken, and trying to remember my truth.