I need advices for BS accountancy and BS pysch college peeps and graduates...
Alright so.. I just want to let this out of my chest. I've been having a hard time on choosing which course of the two I should pick.
One, I choose accountancy because for practicality and it's what my mom wanted. I didn't think much about it since they said there will still be math, and coming from a STEM student, I've been more passionate with numbers and science. So, I selected that as my desired program. Second, I choose psychology because it has been my scape goat from reality. I've been interested with psychology by knowing how human minds work, emotions, thoughts and feelings being validated since it felt like I could relate to them. So, I selected that too as part of my desired program.
Now.. As time goes by, I tried to advanced study accountancy. And I choose that as the course I'd enroll since it was the only program that popped up for my application, and I noticed myself to have this feeling where psychology is my " the one that got away...". Other than that, I also noticed that accountancy is full of business and as from someone who came from STEM (Science Technology Engineering and Math), I literally dont have any idea about financial literacy and BASIC ACCOUNTANCY and when I started learning, I feel overwhelmed because I feel like I'm learning but at the same time, I dont. I started getting scared because it'll feel like I'll fail BS accountancy and I noticed myself on resenting my mom for choosing what should be my course.... I know its wrong to blame since I had the choice to choose in the first place.
So, I tried to talk to them, that I want BS Psychology, but after discussing things with them. I started weighing the cons for choosing BS pyschology.
Cons:
I'll be studying away from home where I really need to be independent in which I am not confident and very scary to think about since I've been living under the roof of my parents and I don't have someone to be independent with together. In which if I choose BS accountancy, it's minutes away from our home and I could go home whenever I wanted if there is no class for how many hours. I won't have to worry about several things, the boarding house, the clothes, etc. Since I could live comfortably.
If I choose BS pyschology, can I even assure myself that I feel happy for choosing this course?
Can I even assure myself that I'd graduate BS Psychology and I wont shift?
When choosing BS accountancy, my fear was just failing because I dont have any background for it. But when I choose BS pyschology, my fear grew further, my self doubt whether can I even graduate and can I even survive living alone while schooling?
Also, other than that, from where I live. It is known that BS accountancy has more opportunity and in demand for work so it's easier to find work in other cities + the income is really worth it, as far as I've known. But as for BS pysch, it's also the same but I could say that not much as BS accountancy. That's why I feel like I've been drawn to BS accountancy more since I really really value the money before my own happiness because tbh.... Can I even tell myself that I'd be happy with either of the 2 courses I'd choose?
I'm having a hard time because at this point, I know that either of the 2 courses I'd choose, I feel like I won't be totally happy since I'd suffer and suffer for just schooling them in the future... All I'm doing is weighing the prons and cons for it, but I literally don't know the feeling of "spark" for learning any courses.
I need advices badly :(((