How to live?
What a silly question
Apologies for the depressing nature of this post, but I figured this was the best place to ask as many of you have likely grappled with these things in the past (or maybe even in the present).
After reflecting on life, I realize that there's probably no God, no afterlife, limited free will, no moral truths, and kinda no point to any of this. I believe most people in this sub have the same beliefs as me, yet many of you guys still live fairly happy and fulfilled lives (to that I commend you). My question is, how?
Prior to reflecting on life, I was a very driven and ambitious person. I just thought that was the point of life. I had never questioned why I did any of the things I did.
I live a pretty good life by most people's standards. I have a good future lined up, in good shape, and young (17M). Yet life just seems kinda dumb. It feels like anything I do is just a distraction from the fact that I'm going to die. Get a degree, get married, work, maybe get some pets, spend some time on my hobbies, die. That's it?
Perhaps my problem is expecting more in the first place, but now matter how I try to view it, it really is weird.
I have pondered it for a while and have came to the conclusion that I will not end my life, but I'm in this weird position where I don't wanna die but living isn't too great either. It's very demotivating knowing that no matter what I do one day it will just be seized from me and I won't remember any of it.
I have read a lot of existential philosophy like Camus, Sartre, etc, but I just don't find any of it to be too convincing. "One must imagine Sisyphus happy" what if he isn't?
I don't know, this whole life ordeal just strikes me as really dumb. What are we even doing here? Why not give up? I don't know why my parents brought me into this world if this is all there is to it. Any shifts in perspective or other ways of looking at things would be greatly appreciated.
How does one continue to live after seeing reality for what it is?