I can't help this
For soo long now, idk how many years since Ghibli has been a part of my life since i was a little kid, but i've had this very strong connection to these films.
Even if i hadn't watched any of the films in months but whenever i think of the movies or hear one of the songs i always get this intense, almost melancholic feeling inside me. it like pinches my chest. it might be nostalgia, but mostly it's about any of the female characters.
i want to be them. i'm a young adult man now, but i feel overwhelmingly sad when i think of the girls in Ghibli. their nature and joy, pretty clothes and how others treat them. it makes me so jealous and emotional.
i was just on a walk and decided to listen to some ghibli music and once again i got this feeling. i literally teared up. i don't know what it is, but the feeling is so intense for me and i get sad whenever i remember how i look.
sorry about this post, i'm just emotional