I am a 33F who honestly has lost passion for life or things in life and is self sabotaging everything in life. Honestly crying right now whilst I write this because I am doing it on purpose and I just feel everything is pointless in my life and everyone in my life is better off without me being the bad luck. And they deserve better and even messing up on jobs so I'm left financially struggling. To not caring about my health or health condition and being like F this whats even the point of doing anything or caring about anything anymore. I honestly don't know anymore.
P.S I'm sorry if this sounds depressing or sounds entitled. Or just sounds and feels sad. I've never talked about my feelings openly. And lately just not enjoying life or have anything to look forward to and don't mean to talk about it. And honestly feel like I might just be bothering people both in my life and strangers about my problems.