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So yall might've seen some of the other posts I've made this week[I apologize for the frequency of them I've just felt really passionate about Mother Demeter], so if some of these questions seem a little redundant of those other posts I'm sorry.

To the long time followers, I ask you all simple question, what am I supposed to be doing???

I've been doing this for almost a year atp and I kinda still don't know wth I'm doing.

I originally was gonna stick to my plan of simply saying the prayer I wrote every night for Mama Deo, every month or so read her Homeric Hymn, but I remembered I can't do that. Prayer isn't enough as I've been told. This isn't like *their* religion. I can't just sacrifice time, I need to give up something of value.

We're poor though and my mom has no money. I can't be burning animal fat and sacrificing bulls. At least not yet.

I can't give libations cause my grandma and her husband have barred me from going outside at night.

I can't drink or eat anything in there honor cause last time I did that I kinda got yelled at by multiple people on here and it made me cry. It's also a Roman practice not Hellenic. I worship Demeter. Not Ceres. Demeter. I want my practices to be Hellenic. Means no eating offerings, no tarot, no nothing like that.

So I ask you dear people for an answer too my plight. What can I do? I know she won't get upset or anything, but I want to appease Mother Demeter. Do yall have any ideas? Any detailed but digestible sources that could tell me what to do? Please.

[I also stop posting so frequently if it's annoying. Again I'm just strangely passionate about this.)

> "O'Demeter Mother Demeter She WHO's Golden Hair is Like Fresh Grain Deep-bosomed She WHO's Strong-arm'd and Bountiful Crown'd With Wheat and Dark-robed As One Does Their Own Mother I Love and Long for You

> O'Demeter Queenly Deo I Invoke You Goddess of Harvest I Ask for Naught for a Sign, but Only an Audience Lo, May You Hear My Words and Hold Them in Your Heart

> O'Demeter Nurturing Sito All-nourishing Great Goddess Lady of Crop Fields and Fruit Most Sweet As I Feast Most Indulgently Know I Think of You

> O'Demeter Immortal Demeter Know That Under Every Breath I Speak Your Name With Quiet Reverence Know That as I Slumber I Dream of Your Beauty and Grace Till I Lay Below in Dreary Hades Shall You Hear My Prayers

> I Will Always Want for Your Embrace Never Shall I Forget Your Warmth O'Demeter"

A finished prayer to, in my opinion, the most underrated Goddess. In a removed post I asked for help in writing it so if you happen to be one of the people who commented on that post and you recognize one of your suggestions, thank you so much!!! :D

Anyways I hope yall enjoy the prayer! Deo bless you!! By the grace of Mother Demeter may your belly always be full!!!

>O'Demeter Mother Demeter She Who's Golden Hair is like Fresh Grain Deep-bosomed She Who's Strong-arm'd and Bountiful Crown'd with Wheat and Dark-robed

>O'Demeter Queenly Deo I invoke you Goddess of Harvest I ask for naught for a sign, but only an audience Lo, may you hear me words and hold them in your heart

> O'Demeter Nurturing Sito You shall never leave my heart Forever I will shout your prayers And tell the last star in heaven above flickers and Burns away As a child loves their mother I shall love you I shall Worship you

So for the most part I'm decently proud of this little prayer I wrote for Mother Demeter. Although... it's quality kinda fizzles out at the end and in general could use some improvements.

So to all my Demeter worshipers out there/people who are just generally good writers... I need your help fixing this prayer. I want it to be the best it could be as I'm gonna be saying this every night for the next while! -w-

Give me some positives, some kind but constructive criticisms, also tell me what you would omit/change. Y'know give me some suggestions! :p

I'm really trying to make it sound more flattering to Deo, more in realtion to her role as a goddess, and I want it to sound fancier. :D

Around the start of my Sophomore year of High School 8 to 9ish months ago(at least I think?) I began to worship the Greek Gods.

At first it was Aphrodite. She had helped me quit an addiction basically cold-turkey. I was so enraptured by her.

For a while I went to bed with this euphoric warmth in my heart uttering under my breath as I drifted off to sleep: "Praise Aphrodite... Praise Aphrodite..."

Soon I shifted my worship to Nyx and that warmth only got even better. The nightly uttering only became more frequent. I slept every night feeling loved. A beautiful powerful Goddess lied above me every night who only wanted the best for me. Wanted better than even my own mother.

Soon I started trying to juggle more gods. More prayers. Got burnt out. Took too long of a break.

It's just... this year has really been tiring. I'm more anxious. More generally neurotic. Just generally more sad than I'd like to be. Yes, I'm trying to get therapy.

I've tried worshipping again recently and it just doesn't feel the same. It feels like a chore. Sprinkle myself with salt-water, hurriedly stumble over a prayer for a god, drink/pour out a drink in their honor, and just repeat.

Recently I watched a video on Demeter. I felt such a... draw to her. The want to worship her and only her.

So I ask three questions. Two more important, the other doesn't have to be answered.

One, how can I spark my passion for worship again? How can I feel that warm again? I know that's very vague, but it's important if I wanna truly devote myself to Mother Demeter.

Two, what are some ways I could worship Mama Deo that would be Hellenic, but also be done in secret and with not a lot of resources? I wanna take influence from the past.

Third, is it weird to personify a God/Goddess or in other words think of how you think they'd look like and would that be odd to write about in prayer or invocation? Like today I listened to the Homeric Hymn to Demeter and it's inspired how I picture Mother Demeter in my head. When I think of her I visualize things like: "Golden Hair like fresh grain", "Deep-bosomed", and "dark-robed and crown'd with sheaves of wheat." Also probably smelling of baked bread.

How can fast and like... not die??? :0

So I wanna try devoting myself to Mother Demeter and I want it to be a serious devotion so I wanna try to fasting. Though I have been advised that without certain prep and precautions it could be very dangerous and bad for me.

My plan is that I wanna fast between dawn and dusk and start/break the fast with a "feast"/large meal in the style of the Eleusinian Mysteries.

So from people who have practiced it or a currently practicing it, do yall have any tips so I don't kill myself...

I just wanna make Mother Demeter proud.

So ever since all crash around 1 to 2 years ago I've always been anxious in and around cars. That crash only ended giving me and my family seat belt burn at the worse and mom's car was totaled, but it almost ended a lot worse.

Ever since then I feel so afraid whenever Im in a vehicle. Whenever my mom's driving me I flinch at every close call and movement of the car. Whenever I'm on my bus I also get anxious whenever my bus is turning and a car gets a little too close.

So for a while the idea of driving myself was an impossibility.

Unfortunately for me, there's not a lot of public transportation around where I am(at least not free)and I can't exactly get a job without one. I'm almost 16.

When I brought this up too my mom she told me "OK, how about I teach a little bit of the basics hands on and we try and drive around the block?"

I was apprehensive most definitely. I don't have a permit and I'm a stickler for laws and rules. Also I was deathly afraid of crashing and getting everyone killed. I didn't want to drive, but my mom insisted.

Long story short the gas pedal was alot more sensitive than I thought and I accelerated backwards into a ditch. We were fine the car was mostly though I did knock of the bumper. And after getting it fixed my mom reassured me it was fine no harm done and that we'd try again in a parking lot.

I'm even more worried about that. What if I hit a car and kill everyone? What if I damage someone's else's car and I go to prison or my mom has to pay for it? We're not in the best financial situation right now anyways.

How am I gonna get a job without a car? How am I gonna leave this state without a car? It's just... driving seems like such a horrifying herculean task I'm paralyzed just thinking about it. I mean- I crashed the first time in the car without having even touched the wheel!

I just need some advice. :(