still think about the version of myself in high school even after 3 years
So when I got to high school (11th & 12th grade), I joined a new school solely because I wanted to do A-levels, which my previous school didn’t offer.
At the start, I was really lazy and took my studies lightly. My attendance record was bad too, mainly because I was very quiet and didn’t make any friends at the beginning of the year.
After a while, we had unit tests. The grades came out and went straight to the coordinator. That’s when she found out about me and how I was performing. From then on, she would often scream at me and humiliate me. I always just took it.
But then one incident really stuck with me. It was in December, just before the Christmas holidays. We had another unit test, and on the last day (our final exam), she came into the class while distributing the papers and said to me, “You’re not studying.” I don’t know why, but I replied, “I am.”
She then proceeded to announce all my marks in front of the entire class (they were all terrible). I remember feeling so shocked that for the first 30 minutes of the exam, I couldn’t even write anything I was completely frozen.
When I got home, I locked myself in my room and didn’t speak to anyone.
Additionally, during my final year (12th grade), she once called my mom in for a PTA meeting. My mom later told me that when she picked up a university pamphlet, the coordinator was giving her really judgmental looks.
Thankfully, I eventually locked in and managed to pass all my AS & A-level modules.
Fast forward to today , it's been 3 years. I’m now in my second year of university, and I’ve changed a lot since then. I’ve really turned things around. I’ve been working hard academically, surrounded by a great group of people, and most importantly, becoming a better version of myself.
However, sometimes I still think about everything that happened. I won’t say the school or the coordinator were completely at fault I played a big role in it too.