How to know if I'm really sza if I've only told the team I think I can hear my dad's voice and their voices at times?
I was in the inpatient psyche ward voluntarily and I just said I feel like I can hear their thoughts and my dad's/ people thoughts but really I just felt like everyone was judging me and basically holding back tears, a trauma response etc /bawling my eyes out in a corner I feel like a big adult little kid who just needs to let go of their idealistic fantasy that I was always given attention and affection from my Mom
You could partly say I have a mother wound if you know what ifs is if that's even relevant I just feel like sometimes my inner thoughts tell me I don't deserve attention because the 1 specific time my Mom got irritated at me when I was younger. It probably didn't make me experience some psychotic break. But I recall bawling, hyperventilating and eventually getting numb and stop crying I wish I didn't stop crying because maybe then someone would've seen I was so hurt. I'm 31 now