We had a great connection and then he started suddenly saying rude things "as a joke" and a couple days later after a minor argument he went ballistic and said the cruellest possible things he could think of. I'm currently going through the process of being diagnosed with mast cell activation syndrome that's stolen years of my life and I've lost the few friends due to the illness for either being too flat and withdrawn and for coming out as trans as well as loosing most of my family, I normally feel completely emotionally numb but I feel the weight of the situation is more than I can take. I do want more people in my life and I feel like I am not worthy of it because of my depression and symptoms causing me to feel like a ghost in a body a lot of the time and it makes me feel disposable. though I did try when I met my partner. He said that I was worthless aswell and a little bitch and that no one wants to be around a depressed person all the time.
Im reaching out for support but also to meet friends who understand how this feels and would be interested in being friends, I enjoy talking about a lot of different topics, and I'm interested in history. philosophy, religion, astronomy, makeup and when I'm well I love fitness too, I'm also from Australia but I'm open to friends from wherever.