Gaslighting no one but yourself
So the thing is ,someone abused me before and I started being harsh on myself since then . How do I know ? Well most of the time I wonder if the people I talk to would like to hear me talk the same way I talk to myself . It will definitely hurt them . Any how since then I've been resenting myself for a while but then I felt bad for being like that because I know eventually it will affect the people around me ,so I gaslight myself as if the whole self loathing and abuse didn't happen . The problem is . I was like that because most of the time I felt gaslight ,so I started doing it to myself and now I really can't stop . I'm constantly gaslighting myself for the sake of others and now I can't stop. I'm emotionally numb when something really bad happens I just make sure I never remember it and that's it . How can I stop doing this ?