Feels Like a Nightmare
I (24M) am currently halfway through my temporary position at my first corporate office job. I am part of the finance department and the work environment feels horrid.
I work with a small team of five people, two are higher authority (boss and supervisor), and the other two work with me in a large shared cubicle space.
I was initially intimidate as I have heard mixed opinions over the reputation of working in a corporate office. My initial outlook (thanks for not working half the time) was that the money is good, but the time is rough. Working here has furthered this perspective I have.
We are salaried and are expected to get all of the work done as possible, which is an understandable ask to have. However, I cannot see myself undergoing the same working conditions as those in my cubicle. They are incredibly kind and patient with my questions and misunderstandings. The work I do is manageable and their presences makes the work environment enjoyable. However, they work incredibly long hours, with multiple instances of them leaving the office around 8, and continuing to work till the latest 10. These are not rare, but they are often enough to be concerning. The worst sign I see is that they have dinner in the office. It seems so dehumanizing.
I have had an impression of how the work environment would be from my supervisor. The pressure and attitude that has been provided from them has started outside of the workplace. They are unfortunately my neighbor which I had connected with to be networked into this position. They would complain about me to my mother before they would communicate any of the information to me. Statements that I leave the office too early, 5pm, that I don't communicate with her, that she is supposed to be my mentor teaching me.
There is a nightmarish amount of information that they have dumped onto my mother who is also sick of their behavior. They have complained that my coworker has been incompetent for my coworker's entire employment. Turn mistakes into lecture that I don't want to keep my job within the span of 2 months.
They are also contradictory on what they want from me. They complain that I am not actively looking for more responsibilities though they told me that I was never meant for the responsibilities. Proudly proclaimed that they are supposed to be my mentor and not my coworker who I see everyday when we are in office, the one who actually taught me everything in my role. They state they have been accommodating with my requests and that I have been difficult.
They do not communicate with me. Ignore my messages. Expect me constantly reach out to them. Tell me they are too busy to respond.
I DO NOT, foresee myself continuing working under their management after my temporary position is over.
My mistake in my life is not pursuing what I wanted. I will begin to do so once the temporary position is over, or I have been terminated, whichever comes first. I refuse to give my life to this corporate environment. Being told that I have to make "sacrifices" to do well in the office. I will not sacrifice my health, my dinners with my family, or my well being to reach your inhumane expectations.