once you set a plan you start thinking about everything differently
it makes you less thinking all the time about scared for the future or hopeless but now instead of just enjoying things you think about how this might be the last time i ever enjoy it. idk so many reasons to leave and not enough to stay. just don’t make a plan to start with ofc because it only gets harder to unplanespecially when the date gets close. but also it helps to plan other things instead like if you were going to do that then you might as well try approaching random girls and maybe one of them will say yes (tho unforch, i’ve never gotten a yes). or do something wild. like after i had my cliff fall incident it was much easier to go skinny dipping with girls because i was just off the rails entirely. i’m really sorry if you can relate to any of this and im also dealing with this right now so i just want to post this to share what ive noticed with everyone