Help
Hi I’m looking to see if anyone else has experienced this form of ocd. Although I’m ashamed to admit it, I uncontrollably look at breast. I don’t want to and get no sexual satisfaction out of it. It happens with everyone no matter who they are or what they look like, even family members. I am completely horrified and don’t know how to stop it. I have done lots of research and believe I’m suffering from ocd although I’ve never had a formal diagnosis because I’m too embarrassed to bring it up with any mental health professional. This randomly started a couple of years ago and has completely ruined my life and relationships. I have completely isolated myself and avoid everyone in fear I will make others uncomfortable. As a woman this has been heartbreaking to me because I know what it’s like to feel objectified and hate that I’ve made others feel that way against my will. No matter what I do my eyes automatically dart to the chest area, it feels like a tic. I feel so hopeless for the trajectory of my life due to this ailment. I’m terrified of being labeled a creep and fear I already have been. I don’t know how I can work or have relationships due to my issue. I guess I’m making this post to see if anyone else has dealt with this and if it will ever get better. I’m currently looking for a therapist to help manage this but I don’t even know how to bring it up and have not much faith they could even help me. It is completely debilitating and makes me no longer want to live. Please be kind.