This is why I had UL. Three dick surgeries because I wanted to be able to piss into Mountain Dew bottles. It has all lead up to this and it may just have been worth it. Not even a Gatorade bottle, yall, my urethra is so perfect I can go in an Evian bottle.
So, stage one eliminated a lot of my dysphoria. Stage two and the revision have been complicated, but they also really changed my body. And I will say that what I have is something I can work with, it’s just very different from what was there.
Me, to a friend: I hypothosized that taking nudes would make me feel better about my body—
Friend: That has never made me feel better about my body!
Me: Well you’re not a complete narcistist, are you?
I set up the tripod when I was doing my drain compliant modified shower and took some pics. …I’m starting to feel better about what I wound up with. I’m having a lot of feelings, but part of me is proud of what has been accomplished, possible. Even if it’s not what I had planned. Starting with a clothed pic tho
I still plan to get a photographer to take pictures of me when I’m fully recovered, but this is kinda encouraging in the meantime.
I have not chosen a donor location yet, and I will very much take whatever I can get, but right now I can choose between rff or alt. I’m also a very small (short) person. I’m 5’0” so I know that should put a reasonable upper limit on my phallus goals as well which type of surgery I get.
My initial thought on size was 3-4”, because I mostly want to clear the fly peeing. But the more I’ve thought about it, the more I would like the option to use my penis for sex. (Although I decided a while ago that I don’t need a dick the size of my forearm for sex because anyone into that would probably be okay with my fisting them anyway.) For this reason I am considering asking for closer to 4.5-5.5” inches. I’ve sat with a ruler and 6” would hang almost halfway to my thigh, and I do understand that I will be carrying it all the time: jogging, in shorts, playing at the park; he’s gonna be there, same size. I do understand that.
When discussing size, I made the joke a while back, quoting a politician who said “hey! I’m not Steve, I’m not trying to suck ny own cock!” Then I went to the Tom of Finland museum I saw a maquette of a man doing that.In the most vain part of my brain, the part that says “hey, why not treat yourself if you have to go through all this trouble?” the part of me that is a bit of narcissist, okay, a lot of a narcissist… with practice, I could sick my own cock if it was just over seven inches.
I don’t know how serious I am about that, I do t know how significant 5.5” vs 7.5” really is. How did you decide when you were asked for your goal size?
First, I am never going to be the ideal length to clear my fly. I’m not gifted. But I wanted to pee from my dick more than I wanted to pee standing in jeans. And holy crap has it been worth it. First round, I had a fistula, second stage the whole underside of my dick ripped open, this time it seems like everything is healed right. And I’m so relieved.
I am getting better at peeing through the leg of my shorts, working on a simple/dyi stp extension, I ordered a silicone meta extension prosthetic, and I can still use 16-25% of urinals regardless of clothes but somewhat depending on if I have the room to myself. Standing to pee is more than I was hoping for from meta; I was hoping to sit but have it come out my button meta instead of near my vagina.
Since stage one, I’ve been able to use a portable urinal, but stage two moved everything forward enough that I can shimmy my pants down while sitting in the drivers seat of my car and stick my junk in a urinal or Gatorade bottle quite comfortably.
Long road trip where I have to use a sketchy, deserted rest area? Filthy gas station restroom? Portapotty or park toilet hut? Stuck in traffic too long to find an open bathroom? No longer a problem! And the best one: gay bar with no stall in either bathroom? Doesn’t matter. I piss into a jug when I get there, before I leave, and if I have to I can slip back to my car. I can almost exist in society the way I want!
But the most euphoric and convenient part is that already, right now while I’m still swollen (honestly a lot less swollen now than when I filmed five days ago), I can put my dick INTO something to piss. When I look down while pissing, it’s shooting out the tip of my cock. I can pull myself out of my underwear and then tuck myself back when I’m done. In the car is great, but outside is fun too. Right now, if I pee into the urinal jug and dump it in the toilet/sink, I do that need toilet paper, of as much. If I’m at a urinal, I need a paper towel to dab off with still.
I can’t wait until I’m healed up to go camping so I can pee off a mountain. Then I gotta get out of SoCal and find some snow to write my name.
I just thought of this! …if I can put my dick into things to pee. Will I be able to put it into toys? Or, holy crap, consenting people?!
I had to have the drain replaced and the twilight anesthesia really messed with my head but it is draining much better now.
Swelling is decreasing very quickly, finally. First pic is barely 12 hours apart!
Urethra appears healed, urination is great. Did a void trail for the first time: the inject saline to your bladder through the foley catheter until you can’t hold it and then pull the tube. Gave me options but I just peed into a big cup.
Big emotions still (as in I’m scheduling therapy a lot and started an anti depressant, I think having so many anesthesia events so close together had an impact) but I am satisfied with the meta results right now although there are two places on my scrotum that I am hoping heal correctly and are still affected by swelling.
Also, just found out I can aim better than before the revision which several of yall said was likely, so thank you everyone who said so! But I am peeing on the floor in front of the toilet if I forget when sitting.
I had to have the drain replaced and the twilight anesthesia really messed with my head but it is draining much better now.
Swelling is decreasing very quickly, finally. First pic is barely 12 hours apart!
Urethra appears healed, urination is great. Did a void trail for the first time: the inject saline to your bladder through the foley catheter until you can’t hold it and then pull the tube. Gave me options but I just peed into a big cup.
Big emotions still (as in I’m scheduling therapy a lot and started an anti depressant, I think having so many anesthesia events so close together had an impact) but I am satisfied with the meta results right now although there are two places on my scrotum that I am hoping heal correctly and are still affected by swelling.
Also, just found out I can aim better than before the revision which several of yall said was likely, so thank you everyone who said so