How many times did you trip before feeling e health benefit?
I’m in my 20s now. I did shrooms back in 2018 which was a huge eye opener for me. I managed for the first time in my life to let go of my conservative Christian childhood and start being/finding myself.
Across the last 2 years I’ve done 7 acid trips. But to be honest the first 4 times I was left most anxious/confused than before (or at least the benefits didn’t feel sufficient). But the last two trips I feel like I’ve had a breakthrough. It’s been two days since my last trip which also was my largest dose (2x ”200ug” tabs). I’m left calmer and more confident than I’ve been in years.
Weird thing is my most challenging trips were on half a tab and one tab. idk what a bad trip is honestly, but I went through a bunch of tough feelings, childhood feelings came flooding back. The most bisarr experience was the first trip (1 tab), I was a baby being carried around, learning how to connect with caregivers and how every new feeling I felt was the strongest feeling I’ve ever felt… the first two trips were about 10 times more challenging or painful than the last one (“400ug”). In a way I feel like I fully let go which made the experience so enjoyable
I’ve always had social issues due to my childhood and major problems regulating and accepting my own feelings. Now i feel like I can comfortably sit with my feelings without trying to flee from them.
How many times do people need to trip before having such a breakthrough? Is there any point doing more trips in the future if this change stays?