I was on a strict eating/yoga/meditation regimen for 4 and a half years or so..
by their instruction.
when the cracks started to appear I started to go off the rails.
am smoking again... eating junkfood.
now I am getting warnings. some of it is pretty dark.
for the last 6 months.
anyone got any similar experience?
I am having a very strange experience.
for the last 5 year nearly...
it all started with gangstalking... and the release of an album by my fave band. The two coincided and things started to get really weird. sounds strange I know... it was.
They have connected it to a band I love. had me thinking it was them for the longest time.
lots of directed lyrics,.. stuff in interviews... I did a painting of a grey scale rainbow,.. a few months later their new album came out with a grey scale rainbow on it.. I had become FB friends with the drummer around this time, I had shared a story about a personal acid trip report on my feed,.. one of the songs on the album was called "F*** your acid trip" and another called "transmit and recieve"... and at the time the album came out the lead singer was talking about being gangstalked... then I started to be gangstalked... but it was not just people on the street,.. it was that,.. but also stuff on tv,.. utube feed.. it goes on...
After a while i noticed they could make people do and say stuff. at first I thought they were complicit... but this stuff is directed. after 5 years they have "spoken" through pretty much everyone close to me... and before I knew better I thought they knew.. and were involved somehow.
everywhere I go I am bombarded with synchronicities, tarot readings on utube.. they can make other people say and do things.. make rainbows appear in the sky... peoples tshirts, slogans on bags speak to me...
strong mental direction.. i went keto and lost 100lbs in 18 months, 10 day water fasts, showering in cold water, 20k steps a day, joined a Vipassana group and sat 100 hour meditations, 10 hours a day for 10 days... did months of service where i would meditate 6/8 hours..
they make it seem I would get my dream job..
They had me studying alchemy, the occult, had me believing they were higher beings and I was being initiated. it was all(mostly) supportive in a weird way.. if i ate the wrong stuff i would find it on my patio, bread, .. little after 8 packets (you know, the thin chocolate mints..) the empty packets filled with rice or pasta, people carrying bread or milk,.. like dozens of people....
the way it started to happen was pretty wild.
I am feeling pretty worn out from it all.. so excuse the fragmentation...
it became apparant I was being watched... i covered all suspicious vents and things in my new appartment, blocked the windows etc...
one day i was mixing a pot of glue with a pink marker... I left the pen 2/3rds dipped in glue on a bit of card on the table.... a bit later that day i opened my door to find on the step a similarly coloured pencil 2/3rds dipped in what looked like shaving foam...
at that point I knew that they were seeing what I was seeing.
if i start to do something they dont like the high pitched whine gets louder, and there has been rumbling in the ceiling like rats are loose.
after nearly 5 years of this and none of their promises occuring, i started to doubt..and they started to get mean.
then they started to identify as a trickster, that they had lied about everything. that they were faustian in some way... the devil.
I am watched constantly. if i watch stuff on utube it often interacts with me. my fave utubers pointedly saying things to me.. their tshirt something relevant..
since the turn 5 months ago... i struggle to find meaning in anything.. i have started smoking weed again.. they said "you dont know how low we will go".. nothing else came true so... heres hoping.
i have started eating carbs again... drinking milky sweet tea that was before banned...
am being called "donkey" a lot.... people flipping the bird..
coughing everywhere i go... outside my window frequently.. whenever i smoke...
the sun became a big eye on more than one occasion....
and it seems even my past has been altered.