“I miss my online friend but I do not know if I should reconnect , i was the one who ended it by ghosting"
i met this guy online and we talked a lot for around 7 to 8 months. our vibes matched really well. we used to play truth or dare and random games and literally talk the whole day. he lives in another country so it was difficult sometimes to manage time and stuff but we somehow made it work.
but i made one mistake which kind of ended the friendship from my side because i basically ghosted him. we shifted to instagram later, specifically my public art account because i was still apprehensive about sharing my personal account since it was my first time having an online friend.
then we started talking there too and one thing i forgot to ask initially was his age. he turned out to be around 4 to 5 years older than me. i have always been clear that i only wanted friendship because online relationships are not really my thing.
somewhere along the way he started liking me i think. he would often ask questions related to dating and stuff. i rejected him because firstly it was online and secondly the age gap made me uncomfortable. i told him clearly that i did not want to lead him on or give mixed signals. after that i slowly stopped talking to him and i guess he understood the hints.
it has been a little more than 3 months now. i stopped using that art account for a while but since last month i have been scrolling there again and liking his stories sometimes. then around 2 weeks ago i noticed he unfollowed me.
so now i genuinely do not know what to do. do you think it is okay to rekindle the friendship or should i just let it be? he was honestly one of the sweetest friends i had, but at the same time i did not like the constant dating related questions and the fact that he liked me romantically.
for the last two weeks i have been thinking a lot about whether i should text him or not. i also missed his birthday because i did not remember the exact date. my birthday is coming soon too, so part of me is wondering if i should wait and see whether he wishes me first or if i should text him myself. or maybe i should just let it go completely.