ok hi, i(19f) just writing a vent post. And like the title says everything just sucks. it feels like everything in my life is just falling apart now. On and off for the last 2 years my parents have given the landlords issues.
they’re usually late on rent, can’t blame them shits hard for everyone now a days. They work 60 hour weeks just to not even be able to afford 1500 rent, sucks.
My mom hoards dogs and obviously most places don’t accept more than 2 pets per apartment. And my mom lets the shit and pee all over the carpet. Definitely not getting that security deposit back ..
My mom is going blind from glaucoma so medicine is through the roof because Medicaid doesn’t approve for my mom but me and my brother are covered. I’m constantly having to help them pay bills. Months ago I thought we were doing better so i decided to leave my job because it was a unhealthy work environment, taking my tips& a bunch of other shit, and I thought “not working for two months will be fine” I was wrong, i picked up another job and they barely give me hours now and now I can’t help pay bills. I’m thinking i have to pursue another job now but what difference would it make now?
I feel like i blame myself now because if i would’ve just sucked shit up with my old job I would’ve been able to help and maybe we wouldn’t get evicted. I’m glad this didn’t happen in the middle of my school semester but i have a summer semester that i’m guessing is not gonna be nice. i just get so mad at my mom and dad, my Mom while a hard worker she doesn’t listen when i tell her to go on a budget but no she needs everything organic, everything brand name, and lets not forget the scratch off tickets.. My dad, I don’t even know at this point. The whole reason there moving forward with the eviction is cus 1. were 5000 behind obviously but 2. my dad was supposed to go to this meeting with them to figure out payment but he didn’t go. This is the second time we are getting evicted for the SAME reason. First the house and now this. You’d think he wouldn’t make the same mistake twice nearly 10 years later.
This stuff just drives me crazy. i can’t do anything I can’t help them, every paycheck i’ve got immediately gets sent to them. I’m not getting hours anymore, I have nothing. When i try to help they don’t listen and are too worried about fighting and yelling over fixing the problem. And i just don’t know what to do. Everything sucks. and I just want to cry.
I think as soon as I finish the first half of college and get into my clinical program, complete it. I’m just gonna secure a job and leave. My family is so just fallen apart and I don’t want to deal with it anymore.