This def a stupider post but like it's one of those things of 'what do I even do with this info' experience and so why not share it to the internet (and asking for some advice later down)
I don't get high often, it's a treat that I like to mix with music and drawing sometimes. This night was one of my first times really greening out. I got freaked because I was convinced I was about to have a seizure so I went to just chill in the recovery position till either calmed down or had a seizure (no history of those btw idk why that was my first thought).
When I started to relax I felt a sorta, how do you say, penetration feeling southwards. I figured it was just from relaxing and the weird state making it feel odd, all I thought was 'ah, now I understand alien probe stories'. I started to realize this was not just my body but a presence with intentions.
For whatever reason I thought which = told him 'yeah, I consent to this, only condition is you stop if I say so' and he explored more and I did enjoy it. It wasn't like a full sexual feeling tho, it was more so like being wrapped in the best blanket ever and being cleansed inside. Just felt natural and normal. It stopped before I got sleepy
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I know it probably was just my body giving weird sensations from relaxing and euphoria peaking or something but is part of me that sorta believes in spiritual stuff and wonders if this was really bad thing to yes to or what the hell the implications are. And how to keep my energy safer in states like this, just for peace of mind ya know?
Also I don't know enough about this sorta stuff to know if this interaction was as harmless as I think it was. So half this post is genuinely asking
The weirdest part for me was how easily my brain rationalized this as 'oh that's just our lover from our gay days back when', brother what?? Also I'm not a sexual person lmao No drive for it and I don't practically enjoy anything done by someone else but guess ghosts don't count lmao I almost wanna met em again, maybe could get more into it this time, maybe stay for some ghost cuddles
Anyway, have a great day ❤︎