How to cope with anticipatory grief?
I have a chocolate lab who is turning 13 in 2 weeks. He’s been in my life since he was 8 weeks old and I love him more than words can describe. He’s overall still kicking really good with no major health issues. However, his mobility is really deteriorating. He slips and stumbles and trips far more than he used to. Struggles to stand. Can’t jump in the car, in my bed, on the couch, or go up or down stairs anymore. Also still tries to run a little bit bc he wants to but it definitely wears on him. (It’s not severe enough to where it’s hurting his quality of life yet). My point is, he’s at that age where nothing is guaranteed anymore. I picture my life a year from now and there’s a real possibility he won’t be in it by then. Bc of this, I have huge anticipation grief, almost feeling as if I’ve already lost him. This definitely allows me to cherish him more and try my best to be more present, but every day it feels like my time with him is running out and the thought of him no longer being with me makes me sad. I’m also going on a 4 day trip next week and this is gonna be my first time away from him in 3 years and his age makes it scarier for me because I wonder if something will happen while I’m gone. Any advice on coping will help.