u/New_Confection1988

I managed 5 months GF after 7 years of gambling hell and relapsed this week

My main triggers are boredom and stress. I spent about 4k to get to 15k playing online roulette then went back to 4k then lost it all. The emotional roller coaster is getting too much for me and I feel mentally tired and stressed

It doesn't feel like it's about the money anymore, just doing it for escapism and to pass time. I've blocked my accounts once again, but I just feel like doing nothing right now. I'm not in debt as I managed to pay it off after several years of hard graft, but the cycle of emotional strain continues ...

I'm a 40M with a gambling addiction. I tried quitting so many times and lost so much money over the years.

I have no house, no girlfriend and no real social life.

I had a relapse this week after 6 months gambling free and I was up by $12,500 after a lucky run, but ended up losing $4,500 in 20 minutes playing roulette online. I am worried that I'm about to lose it all and the very little savings and life I have left. I'm losing hope that I can turn my life around and quit gambling for good. I've wasted so much time and lost more than just money.

I tried self excluding and all the gambling tools to block out the websites, but I still seem to get around it.

Any advice would be very welcome 🙏