I've been severely depressed for slightly more than a month now and I've spent the last \~6 weeks denying all personal ability/aptitude, recklessly demolishing the set of reasoning constructs/facets peculiar(as in every individual's idiosyncratic approach toward & perception of a given concept, problem or task, influenced by relevant knowledge they have acquired) to myself, and now, in addition to that, being entirely dissociated from my idiolectic structure of conversation/expression (if you'll notice, the disorganisation and pleonexia underlying the construction/framing of this text starkly resembles the typical nouveau "larper" and his pathetically inexplicable, empty euphuisms characterised by an absence of any familiarity with elegance of speech, grammar and structure, literary expression and rhetoric, objectively framed and analytical reasoning... Operating only under the barefaced impulsion of uninhibited emotion and desperation God this is hopelessly futile. Still, I'll leave this here as I'm in desperate need of notice and help. Is mania what this is? Or simply one of the countless imaginable repercussions of living under a delusional, alien identity that embodies every object of one's scorn? Forgive me, wrong subreddit 🤕 Oh, what about the GRE though? What's happened?