relationships
im currently in a depressive episode (i think?). i ditched my therapist so im on my own with figuring that out lol. i thought "oh im just tired" but weeks have passed and nothing changes... my friends pointed that out and i guess that's it
the point is, i met someone a few months ago, and i genuinely think this is it. he's my person. we get along so so well. or should i say, got along, because i ruined it
he's pretty insecure and needs my attention, otherwise he starts overthinking and assumes im uninterested. but i don't have the energy to talk to anyone other than my two best friends lately. I've tried to explain it to him, and it worked, but not for long. we're stuck in that loop of me being distant, him pointing it out, us discussing it, getting better for a few days before im back to shutting off
i just need some advice. maintaining relationships is so hard for me when im in this state. is this relatable to anyone? and please don't say "communication is key" - i know, but he's just a person, me communicating how I'm feeling doesn't change the fact that he deserves love and he needs me to show it. i have no idea what to do. i just hope it passes soon, but maybe there's something i could do or work on in the meantime?
thank you in advance