u/New-Mathematician869

I’m considering going to do this Spravato therapy. I’m over 100 days sober off everything besides weed and my meds. I’m getting sick of needing a Xanax to chill n sleep at night so I don’t feel like I’m being watched and going to get killed. I just got out of a physically abusive relationship a few months ago n I have extreme anxiety around that. I’ve been putting the work in… trying to find what I enjoy and what lights my fire…I am in group therapy and individual… I’m doing much better than I was. Lately I cannot seem to get out of this feeling of “stuckness”. sometimes I just feel like I am in quicksand, unable to move….

I’ve been addicted to fent, crack, a bunch of other shi. funny enough— I’ve actually never touched ketamine! So I’m not sure what to expect? I know nothing will “cure” me. I just want to be able to relax! I don’t even want to get high at this point, I just want peace.

I have also had a NDE, any idea if that will make a difference on how it affects me?

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u/New-Mathematician869 — 9 days ago

They were all staring me down like I was something they’ve never seen before. There were more not in the picture. Then I went back to journaling and suddenly they were in my yard, staring at me up close, like I was a fairy or sumn. I was burning holy wood, too. Not sure if that would do anything to attract them other than good vibes??

u/New-Mathematician869 — 16 days ago