I stopped going to the church I used to go to with my separated husband a while ago. I got a call from a pastor today saying I need to come in for "Biblical" counseling. I need to seek to be reconciled and appear before the elders, or I will receive Church Discipline! I have known others to be shunned from the church before.
I do not feel safe with my husband or in this "disciplinary" system this church has set up. One of my therapists believes I have C-PTSD. My separated husband has been abusive.
The pastor now believes I am accusing *him* of being unsafe. I never said this!!! I recorded the conversation because I have experienced them misunderstanding me before. I don't want to go. I don't want to be told I have a hardened heart for wanting to do things differently. Please pray for me.
My husband would be bringing the "offenses" I committed before the elders and I would be doing the same. My husband does not take responsibility for how he has hurt me. He told me I am a narcissist and/or have narcissistic traits, I have abused him psychologically for years, I want other men, I am cheating on him...
And now I am accusing the pastor of being unsafe?!
I just don't feel safe surrounded by all these men in positions of power, men who tell me to "submit" to my husband.
I thank God that He is so good. I am scared, though. Please pray. I think there is spiritual abuse happening here.