I’ve had Tourette’s since I was 5 yrs old. I. Now 29 yr old (f). I’m really sick of the vocal tics and physical tics. I get scared I’ll get kicked out of my apartment for the vocal ones . And sure it may be “illegal” to evict someone for a disability but I’ve been demoted at a job for my tics. People have no problem doing illegal things because they find ways and wording to make it legal. Yea I can go to court but what about if it happens? Where do I go? You know? I can’t just move to a new place in one day. And who will pay for the hotel? Absolutely no one.
I’m sick of people looking at me like I’m crazy. All these years and I’m still not used to it, it bothers me just as much as it did as a five year old—maybe even more now.
I’ve tried meds and still take them but I have a bunch of new diagnoses because of the meds: tardive dyskinesia, Akathisia, and dysarthria. And I also have functional neurological disorder.
It would be nice to have one day without tics. I’m exhausted physically and mentally.
So since I’ve tried all the meds and now have more problems from them, and look even crazier because of the movement disorders the meds caused me in addition to the tics… I’m not sure what to do. I’m over it. I can’t stand living like this. I feel like so much of my life has been lost to this disorder that no one can comprehend (unless they themselves have it).
How do I explain to people that I curse or repeat peoples sentences cuz I have a disorder? Like sorry I called you gross, it’s just a disorder!
Tourette’s is so lame and impossible. I can’t do it anymore. Life would have been so different if it weren’t for this. So many opportunities and time wasted. So much discomfort and embarrassment and exhaustion.
Anyone know of any magic I can do? To fix this? Yea sarcasm but for real I don’t know what to do anymore.