i think im moving on finally but
but today i was studying and my brother said hey your ex called like two times
i dont know what happend i snatched the phone my heart started beating so fast i dont know what kind of emotion i got i was sad angry or happy i dont understand but then i was it was someone else's number but then i was numb and silent then i started crying for 2 hours for i dont know what
for context in has been 8 days of nc but we have been broken up alot and i thought i have suffer a lot in these relationship and tbh this time i was going great otherwise in just 2 days i would gonw back to him but this time i was totally over him and i hate him from my heart but somethings are triggreing and i am really scared of my self that i might go back to him which i dont want to