When did your loved one's delusions start to fade?
Hi everyone, I am just looking for some insight and better understanding around delusions during a mixed episode and mania? My ex fiance 37F, broke up with me last year when she started cycling into a mixed episode after needing emergency surgery and the hospital never contacting her psychiatrist, they didn't give her anything for sleep and also didn't dispense her meds while in the hospital, the pharmacy also never ordered her Latuda so I couldn't even take her some meds. She is medicated and in therapy.
It triggered a massive episode which seems to have lasted 9 months in total. She was desperately asking everyone for help but they let her down. She begged her psychiatrist to up her antipsychotics, he didn't. She told her therapist that she has a paranoid mind and she keeps on thinking that I am deceiving her and that she is being lied to. She told me she doesn't recognise herself anymore, she's so on edge the whole time but she just knows one thing, that she wants to be with me with hope and love in our eyes. She said she doesn't trust her perspectives and she needs to work on it but does not know how.
She wrote me a poem, saying that when she is lost in the sandstorms of her mind, I need to know that she is searching for me and searching for herself and she begged me to remember her.
Anyway, when she broke up with me it was not her. I could see her fighting to get back in the driver's seat but the episode took over and I was erased. She never said hateful things, just that she constantly thinks I am manipulating and using her and that she thinks she is bad for me and that I have a beautiful soul. I just went quiet and never pushed back. I didn't want to add to her struggles and obviously the delusions were exhausting her.
I was just worried because she has been in psychosis twice before and she ends up with guys who use her when she is manic. Anyway she rebounded with an ex and broke up with him after 3 months and now she is just very quiet. She blocked me on socials and whatsapp even though I respected her wishes for no contact. Seeing her struggle and seeing her strength and how she fought for our engagement just made me love her more, not less. When she left she said I healed a part of her and always saw her as whole. Anyway, if anyone went through something similar, how long did it take you to regain clarity? I just want her to remember that she was loved. I hope she does.