Pregnant With #2, HATE Nursing Now
My LO is 14months and I’ve been nursing for his entire life. Our breast feeding journey was complicated because of an extended NICU stay and I pumped a lot during early months. I hated pumping. It made me want to rip my tits off, but I did it. Once we could exclusively nurse, we did, and I have loved it. Completely different feeling. No aversion like with the pumping.
I recently became pregnant though, and now I cannot STAND nursing. Feeling my LO’s mouth and little tongue on my nipple honestly fills me with rage and makes me want to yank him off as quickly as possible. This is particularly inconvenient as we nurse to sleep for all naps and bedtime, and once in the middle of the night.
I hate it so much. It’s too over stimulating. It makes me irrationally angry, and worst of all, it makes me feel ragey towards my baby.
I’ve tried to just limit feeding, but my LO is so upset by this. I feel so badly about it.
Will this feeling pass after the first trimester? Or is this it? I wanted to BF until my LO was 2y/o. He had such a difficult start, I wanted so badly to give this gift to him and I hate that my new pregnancy seems to be forcing my hand.
Any advice?