u/National_Tap_5307

So for the past 3-4 weeks my anxiety has been out of control . For reference I take 30mg of mirtazapine every evening and propranolol 20mg 2-3 times a day and when I need to I can take 5mg of diazepam … but it’s gotten to the point that I feel like nothing is helping .. I go to bed and I almost feel calm and I fall asleep well .. but I wake up around 2-3 am and my anxiety is already turned up to 10 and I lay there for about 2 hours just feeling it get worse and worse . I then have to try and leave the house with really overwhelming physical symptoms like internal and external shakes .. emotional distress .. a feeling that my heart is just not right even though my Apple Watch tells me it’s actually ok ( I have a history of atrial tribulation ) .. I then get to work and I spend most of my day terrified I’m gonna die. I sweat and shake and endure that weird fizzing feeling in my chest which a large part accepts its anxiety .. but another part tells me it’s my heart and I’m gonna die . I work in a relatively physical job and drive for about an hour each day ….. the only time my body calms down is when I’m led on my bed from about 7pm to when I fall asleep … it’s becoming so overwhelming that I’m worried about my mental stability and the dark thoughts creeping in .

How do you guys and girls deal with severe anxiety and does anyone else have similar symptoms? I feel like I’m losing the fight and I don’t know how to cope much longer

So initial I started on 15mg and the sleep I got was amazing I don’t think I’ve ever slept so well .. then because my anxiety was a pain I had to up to 30 and I’ve noticed my sleep is no where near as good as.. I know lower doses are more sedating .. but I wonder if anyone has gone from 30 to 45 and noticed much of a change is the sedating effect ??

I ask because I’m due to see my doc soon and I’m gonna ask to possibly increase because my anxiety is ruining my life again . But my anxiety also gets worse when I don’t sleep very well

So I’m just checking … when you under constant anxiety symptoms .. like I’ve been dealing really badly with my anxiety for 2 weeks . And I get like a fizzing / shaky feeling just underneath my ribs on the left side which makes me think it’s my heart when it isn’t …. Anyone else get this feeling ? Or am I going mental

Ok so here’s a quick rundown of me I deal with generalised anxiety disorder , health anxiety and depression . Ok so I’ve been in Mirtazapine for roughly 11 months now started on 15mg and the help it gave me for sleep was amazing , but the downside was that the cravings for food were all consuming . I then had a bad anxiety spike with panic attacks and disassociating and all the bad stuff that comes with it . My dosage was upped to 30mg and I seemed to level off and the was starting to pull myself out of a very deep dark pit . But recently I’ve had another health issue nothing serious but it severely triggered my health anxiety . Fast forward to 2 weeks later and the illness has pretty much gone . But I’ve spent the last 2 weeks doom scrolling and checking symptoms online , which we all know is the worst thing you can do . Suffice to say I’ve been stuck in fight or flight for nearly two weeks .

I want to believe that my tablets are helping me live better I find myself having less and less happy emotions and only ever having the bad emotions . On top of that I feel I’ve lost all joy in everything and I’ve lost all empathy towards people it’s more like apathy now . It’s effecting my marriage as I’ve spent the last year so worried about myself that I’ve effectively ignored my wife and it’s now at breaking point .

I guess what I’m asking is if anyone else has this kinda feeling on this med or if it’s just my depression coming back and I need to consider something new ? Just down want to be stuck in this dark pit anymore feeling like I have no way out