My bestfriend and good friend are dating and it kinda sucks
My bestfriend who i am super duper close with (and thought was some kind of aro/ace) kind of suddenly started dating another mutual friend of ours a few months back and im happy for them dont get me wrong i love him and wanna see him happy, but im not coping at all with the change in dynamics. Yk i used to cuddle w/ him and be really affectionate and now im third wheeling constantly (same classes) and hes cuddling with his bf.
I feel like such an asshole but im miserable whenever im around them and i feel so paralyzingly jealous? Whenever theyre really affectionate or whatever, i genuinely hate it sm and it sucks that i do
I've never been in a relationship (im in late highschool) and never had a crush ever but now im so confused because aside from kinda being bumped out of first place with my bsf i dont know why i feel so upset abt it. Tbh i think i definelty had a queerplatonic? Crush? On him which good luck explaining it too anyone heh. I dont know how im meant to get over this or whatever
Honestly no one in my life rn gets this weird aromantic angst thing i cant deal with so id rlly appreciate anyone with experience of this lol