Paranoid it's real while lucid
I've been interested in my dreams/lucid dreaming for maybe the past 6 months I think. and I've had 5 or 6 all up (though I'm definitely not trying my hardest 100% of the time, not really the point anyways)..
I think in about half of these dreams where I become lucid - I'm so aware that it's a dream, and do multiple reality checks which show it's not reality, but I'm still paranoid that it is real? ... like I have the thought that oh this is a dream i can jump of this balcony & be fine - but then I freak myself out because everything looks so real, & everything feels so real that I get worried that it might not be a dream & I'm in psychosis or something & I'll actually accidentally kill myself trying to jump off the building.
my most recent lucid dream was induced by accidentally doing WILD, I was waking up a lot in the night & falling back asleep, & in one of them I was aware I was falling asleep & I felt my body drift to the right & my gut like sink or something & I knew I had fallen asleep and I was in a dream instantly - but everything looked the same as my room & I started to think about what I wanted to do & how I should get out of bed & explore but I freaked myself out so much that it all looked so real & felt so real that maybe it wasn't actually a dream & I'm just stupid & I rolled over in my dream to grab onto my boyfriend who was sleeping next to me because I was panicking & he comforted me while half asleep, but I freaked out so much I woke myself up - except I was on my stomach facing away from my boyfriend in the position I fell asleep in & my boyfriend was dead to world unconcious - so it definitely was a dream...
anyways lol I'm just curious if anyone else experiences this? because it kinda ruins the dream, & I can't really explore or control things when my mind is convinced that it is possibly my real life & not a dream.