u/More-Onion-950

Today I sprained (badly) my wrist by carrying a bag of shopping home. It is incredibly painful, needs a support, naproxen and other pain meds. Terrible! How silly!

I hate being perceived and always feel like I make a fool out of myself in the most mundane social situations. I leave them, will ruminate on them for hours and it feels like the person has judged me, is judging me and actually doesn't like me and just secretly hates me.

This probably comes from growing up neurodivergent (more specifically autistic with some other diagnoses) and never truly understanding the social interactions I was having. Even now I just hope i understand or am interacting correctly. There will be times where my tone comes out weirdly or I say something the wrong way and I'll get an odd look.

I just can't get over this feeling that everyone in my life secretly has this hatred for me. And what if the ones that know each other have secret meetings about it. I know it seems to be ridiculous to be this worried about in my 20s but this is something I spend a great deal of time thinking about.