Do you ever get the feeling that your life is being "played" by someone else?
I need to know if I’m the only one who feels this, because it’s starting to get eerie.
Lately, I don’t just feel like an outsider; I feel like my life is being controlled by someone who isn't me. It’s like I’m a character in a game and I’m just watching myself go through the motions. I wake up, I code, I talk to people, I make decisions—but none of it feels like it’s coming from my will.
It’s that "autopilot" feeling, but taken to a scary level. Like there’s a script already written, and no matter how much I want to turn left, the "player" makes me turn right. I look in the mirror and I recognize the face, but I don't feel like the one pulling the strings behind the eyes.
Is it the routine? Is it the pressure of the "System"? Or is it just that we’ve lost so much agency in our own lives that we’ve become secondary characters in our own stories?
In a place like Morocco, where so much of your path is dictated by "hchouma," family expectations, or just the struggle to survive, do you ever feel like "you" actually exist? Or are we all just NPCs (Non-Player Characters) being moved around a map?
I’d love to hear if anyone else feels like they’re just a passenger in their own body. How do you take the wheel back?