Need guidance.
Hey all,
I've been now doing upasana properly since more than a year now, I still don't quite remember how I got started but things just happened on their own. I regularly do atleast 1 mala of a mahakali mantra japa, and a few more things before sleeping.
I'm quite happy with how things are right now so there's no rush or anything, but I just wanted to know what's next ?
I'm not a brahmin, i eat non-vegetarian, i consume "tamasic" food (let's say) nor do I have any diksha, and a lot more stuff. I know this might not be the correct thing to do, or might even anger a lot of people, but I don't mean to hurt anyone's sentiments.
I might be wrong, but I'm happy and very satisfied with the experiences I am having and the protection I feel and that's enough for me.
I don't even have any plans for gaining siddhis or becoming a very wise person asap, but I still do not understand how I should proceed.
Like I like reading a lot, so I forced myself to shift from fictional novels to reading tantra related texts (like easy level things). I researched a lot and I understood all the basic advices people give - I shouldn't rush myself, I shouldn't go around searching for gurus they'll come themselves, i should try to become more disciplined, etc etc.
Honestly I have experienced a lot of changes within myself and that's only what I ask, for her to keep a watch- "samliye nio".
The question is - I'm 21 working in IT and staying in Chennai currently (atleast for another month or so), and honestly I do not see myself magically meeting any GURU like this. I mean shouldn't I put some effort from my side as well too?
I'm not in rush but I don't want abstract quotes, I want some real help with how to proceed.
Anyone in similar situations would love to connect. : )
p.s. : the last time I tried this a lot of people asked me to visit them so they'd help me but finally after 1-2 hours of chat ended up being what i call - "Diksha Sellers".