Afterlife
I am putting down my cat of 16 years this week. I am only 26 years old and so she has been with me for well over half of my life. I have very few memories of my life before she was in it and I am just absolutely sick with grief. I know it’s her time and the kindest thing to do is let her go, but I just can’t stop thinking about what happens after. I’m so fixated on the fact that she can be here one day and just gone the next. I’ve never really believed in an afterlife before, but I just can’t comprehend the fact that once she passes that she’s just gone forever. part of me needs to believe that she goes somewhere that she’s out there somewhere that she’s not just gone…reduced to nothing. I can’t cope with the fact that goodbye is truly goodbye. That she’s not out there somewhere peaceful and happy and that I won’t see her again ever. Do you think it’s possible that she’ll be waiting for me somewhere? Or at the very least that she’s somewhere at peace? Not just gone. Ive been completely inconsolable and I just wanted to hear from other people about what they think and what they’ve experienced.