Faint Test, Very Scared
I am 12 DPO and just got a VERY faint positive test. I had a 22 week TFMR at the end of February and this was my first cycle TTC. I had zero hopes for it because I had an ultrasound two days before I ovulated showing my lining was extremely thin at 1-2mm (basically non-existent when it should be thick and plush for implantation). Since then, I've been drinking, going to the sauna, doing whatever because I was assured there would be no chance, nada, zero, zip. I took on a ton of extra work that has me so stressed I had an autoimmune flare. Like, this was just the worst TWW to implant.
Now, I want to sob because I feel like I just destroyed any chances this embryo had. I am sure that it will end up being a chemical or early MC. The lightness of the test at this DPO doesn't bode well. Any time I've tested this faint so late, it has been a MC. I also feel sick (headache, nausea), which is triggering so many feelings as I was very sick my entire TFMR pregnancy. This is now my seventh pregnancy (that number also makes me want to sob), one LC.
My mind is so messed up right now, oscillating between maybe against all odds it will work and be healthy and my own past experience of multiple miscarriages/TFMR. I know what the likely outcome will be. Not even sure what I want from this post other than to vent to people who understand that positive tests don't mean healthy babies at the end.
Update: Tested again this morning, and it was just as faint if not fainter than yesterday, so I'm calling a chemical. On to the next cycle...