7 year anniversary
It's been 7 years since I was left completely alone. My darling wife and little boy were taken from me, via a shitty driver. No alcohol wasn't involved. Now was drugs or a cell phone. Just a woman going too fast, in too large of a truck, took a corner and plowed right into them as they crossed the road to get to me on the way to a family outing. I'll spare the gore. I buried them mostly alone. I don't have living family. I'm an only child and have parents that passed. So when I buried them I did it alone.there were less than 5 people at the funeral. Counting me and the officiant. Even the pall bearers had to be borrowed from the cemetery chapel. I find every day since then to be worse than others. The tears don't stop. I find it hard to be around children, especially around his age. Im not going to date or start a new family. I'm young, sure but I have stopped caring about things like that. I won't ever do anything to myself but the day to day is becoming overwhelming. I was in therapy, that was pointless. The nightmares don't stop, the visions of it happening over and over again are almost daily. It seems like people don't understand and more often don't care in a professional sense. As far as faith and religion I am not Christian, and I don't intend on being, so church isn't an option. I moved as far away as I could from it, and now I just exist.