I see colleagues throw each under the bus and consultants using shame and humiliation as learning tools, in a system that seems to reward individuals who regulate emotion visibly and predictably, adapt quickly to arbitrary expectations, recover rapidly from harshly worded criticism, and instinctively mirror institutional expectations.
From what I see and experience, the culture is toxic beyond comprehension for multiple reasons that are not always individualistic and reasons I shan't go into here. I understand that when reading the above, no one likes the sound of it, but whether they like it or not they most likely are it whilst at work because this system seems to reward replication and we all have a survival instinct.
I don't want to become this. "Leave medicine" - maybe, but like many of you I imagine, I have been preparing for life as a medical doctor for longer than I'd care to admit and doing a complete career pivot is petrifying and I don't even know what else I could do. I like 'medicine', I hate the culture. I've become somewhat disillusioned with it all. Does anyone feel similar?